So the album is the constant disturbing thinking of a mind, smashed somewhere between trying to make something mean and finding if something can mean. Not accepting one, when you accept the other. The incomprehensible tearing between the two, sitting in crowds of strangers watching them watch themselves. Speaking to someone, looking in their eyes and seeing nothing within. The dreams between this, the small and untampered happenings of true life. Like light shining between two fences, A train passing under a shopping mall. Trying to run away from something that you are running towards, a strange cycle of being. Then, as if biblical seeing the visual bearings of meaning as if pillaging your thought and eating your membranes. That LSD shock of life, like a pregnant labrador's stomach on hot morning grass. I saw something beatiful, because it was disgusting. It had nothing to do with what it beatiful, therefore it seemed important to me. With these thoughts and the strange things I saw in my suburb of Claremont With 'Drugs and Dreams and Waking Nightmares' i sat by my Tape-Recorder at irregular hours and as if forced, i vommited with what my mind was replying to me until it was in some form documented.
I stay in a place that does not understand any bit of my music, all confused within it's own insecure pretense. The not humble and honest music takes it opposite role, and i stand as someone trying to make in some sense 'their' music but failing.
I am making my own music, and this is why i feel seperate from all else. From the strange and obscure between everything, there is the flickers of meaning. This is what, one LSD trip i called 'The Hleger Aum, of The World'. Hleger is a device, Moreso nobody knows what it is. The point of it being, people wondering what it means. A Dada-ist mumble somewhere between the static and everything between.
Mind Within, Thin The Mind - is as best as i could describe some ongoing saga-like compulsion to keep sound in safety of hard-drives or tapes. A documentation of my "Hleger", out of many other "Hleger"s.
for more Hleger check out:
A Living Room Vision
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